Re-membering Earth and the Emotional Body

Healing and growth are inseparable.

Both invite us into contact with fear:
the fear of deep visceral feeling,
and fear of the transformation that will
inevitably result from that contact.

At some point the felt connection between our bodies and the Earth was severed.

This was experienced as a loss of ground, and created an inner picture of enormous fear and separation.

Because this severance was a manipulation, the innocence that connects us to our capacity for growth via the emotional body was blamed, and we believed that we could not trust the feeling parts of ourselves.

Without a sense of mother-ground to support its flow, the knowing of the emotional body became frightening. No space of innocence was allowed to receive its messages, and no Mother was there hold and guide its flowing.

If we allowed deep contact with the emotional body intelligence, and supported its evolution of us, we felt that we would be moved further and further away from our Mother, deeper into aloneness.

The pain of this separation and the resulting fear created the belief that owning our inner knowing meant more loss and separation.

The fear created by this separation combined with the fear of knowing ourselves is very strong.

To the extent to which we feel unable to own our fear, we seek authority to substitute for our own knowing, and act out the original wound of separation, repeatedly abdicating refuge in the guidance of our own alignment: Earth, Body, Breath and Heart.

Because blame was at play, we decided that we could not be responsible for our sovereignty, that we could not trust ourselves with knowing ourselves, and that we needed someone else to assume responsibility.

We projected our self-mistrust and self-betrayal onto those around us, and onto the Earth.

Our self denial demands external authority:

Every time the external authority reflects back something that we approve of, we affirm the necessity of their external authority. We experience them as caring for us that which we are unwilling or don’t remember how to care for in ourselves.

Every time that authority reflects back a fragment of our shadow - our cruelty, greed, control issues, anger or whatever we judge within ourselves, we use shame or blame to deny the pain of those traits that need our own attention in order to evolve within ourselves.

The good thing about this tactic is that all of our self abandonment and betrayal projections are still in circulation, and available to be reclaimed, on the condition that we are willing to forgive ourselves.

The other good thing is that for many of us, our lovingness was not destroyed, and still longs to be held in expression.

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Our wholeness remains intact beneath the surface. To some, accepting that wholeness may feel like a betrayal to those who are in deeper denial, and still longing for someone else to own their experience for them. Some of your relationships may be based in beliefs like this - that being connected means holding the parts of others that they are denying, and they will hold what you deny.

This is not a love relationship, though you may both love what appears to be a convenience, but is in fact a denial based transaction.

This is often mistaken for love, because the denial exchange can feel like being saved. It is actually a relationship of collusion, where both people are being “saved” from confronting, owning and figuring out how to love what they have denied in themselves. So it is actually a relationship in which love is being avoided at all costs.

Healing relationship to the Earth and Emotional Body allows us to step down out of the mind’s version of protection, and feel all the way down to the bottom of the abyss, where we abandoned our Trust.

As this and that crumbles and falls apart in the external world, we are being invited to find our way back to presence within - and remember our original purposes for incarnating on Earth.

Fear is here, but it is not our purpose.

At this time on the planet we are receiving a course correction. It’s clear that our survival and well being do not depend on abdication of our inner knowing in favor of external sources of authority, and that in fact, to continue participating in Gaia’s expansion, we will have to heal the inner dysfunction that is being reflected back to us in the collective.

We need to re-member loving responsibility for our fear, and end the denial of our capacity for growth.